PRIDE

Nov 2 -- transfer day. Wasn't too nervous. The procedure was much worse than the first time though. Maybe because I was drugged the first time? It was very uncomfrotable this time. I felt everything they did and honestly I got cramps everytime I got something poked in the vagina so this time is no exception. The prolonged time didn't help either -- they didn't have it until the third try. Wha happned was that the embie kept getting sucked back into the tube/needle. Anyways it was overall very long and uncomfortable 15 minute. My legs were numb at the end. 

Day 1: Not so great. Had a pretty stressful afternoon. The kids all woke up around 1:30. It was the worst nap time ever. My ovary somehow started to cramp here and there. No sharp pain just uncomfortable and weid (what does it have to do with you Ovie?) Had a fight with Mom at night. Basically I did not take it easy at all and got myself very upset on top of that. Also Sok has been sick for a while and since he doesn't get sick often it must be something powerful (he put both his co-workers out for a couple of days). I totally forgot about it so I shared food with him on our way home. Of course my throat hurts now. 

Day 2: Ovary pain continues. It comes and goes. One uterus cramping feeling but passed pretty fast. Fucking MM figured out what I was doing and asked me if I was pregnant. Despite the urge of shouting none of your fukcing business I told her I was not, just waiting to see if my AF arrives or not. I'm happy that I'll be doing my placement and don't have to see her and talk about it when the 2ww is up. Went to Kristen's house to help with the moving and felt pretty good -- it took it off my mind. 

Day 3: Still ovary pain here and there which is very confusing since this is a natural FET cycle. Why will I still feel pain without the medication? It's not like my ovary is overstimualted! It's annoying cause everytime it happens it brings the subject back to my mind and makes me anxiuos again. At least I got the Bible. That's a good sign -- hopefully God is on my side!

Day 4: Slight cramping like the first day of my period. Sensitive nipple. Occasional ovary pain. Feel like my breasts are bigger. 

Day 5: Feels like my breasts are shrinking. No special symptoms as much as before. Did look like I spotted a bit in the evening. I would say I was more relaxed than last time becuase I was feeling something. But once I stopped feeling anything I got even more worried. And then the supposedly implantation blood, which is totoally a good sign, makes me really nervous somehow. 

DAY 6-11: It's pretty much the same. Cramping here and there. I started to feel pain at the part where my left ovary was though. It is weird since there is literally nothing there now. On Sunday (day 11, when my period was supposed to start), I did a home pregnancy test and got a very very faint line. Did another one the next day and got another faint line. Both times were dollar store cheap ones.

Day 14 (Wednesday the 16th): Went to do the blood test. They called me back before noon and I finally got my BFP!!