PRIDE

Day 10 would be yesterday, Friday the 18th. I saw spotting in the afternoon. I was tearing up a bit when I was alone with Ollie but mom came soon after and I was able to get together before she showed up. K found my Endometrin (so stupid!!!!) but I don't wanna talk about her. Went home at 4 but hubby was out with Jense. I googled getting period before BETA and cried in that hour. I didn't think I would be upset enough to cry. Although I have been trying to prepare myself with this. When Sok came home I felt better but was debating if we should still go to the staff party. I dressed up and looked in the mirror. I'm skinny with a flat belly. 

Staff party was pretty shitty. N wanted to have it at the centre instead of actually going to a restaurant. At first I thought he was trying to save money but K told me that he was complaining about going over budget and stuff. Because of that I had higher expectation for this "catering xmas party". Thought that there will be servers and catering people there. But no it's just a take-out party basically. The food was pretty greasy. Sok didn't even eat that much. He was hungry when we got home and actually cooked for himself. The alcohol provided was wine, not even beers and there were two bottles of wine. We are paying 15 dollars for something we don't even drink and my husband's stomach wasn't even satisfied. Gift exchange went okay. S and I got our own presents back which is good since we spent more money than other people. some of the gifts were so crappy like a pair of socks and a DVD, like the worst!!

Mr. N thought that he was an awesome DJ and we had to go down to dance to show our support. So a bunch of preschool teachers were dancing silly like preschoolers cause obviously we don't do clubbing and has no skills in this genre. We had to wait for so long for the first one to leave and then a short wait to join them. It was not fun at all to me. Wasting my time not to mention that I wasn't in the mood to do socializing and dancing. 

When I got home the blood seemed to start to flow. I just put a pad on and went to sleep. This morning I skipped my Endometrin and called the clinic. No one answered but I assume that they will still want me to go in for blood test. Sigh.